Where has my time gone?

It’s that time of year where I’m beginning to ask myself, where did (blank) go?

Due to the holidays, It’s often, where did my money go? No matter how little money I make, I have a hard time resisting the urge to purchase gifts for those close to me. The real bummer is that I am a terrible gift giver, so I spend all the money but no one really enjoys what I get them.

The other question I find myself asking is where did all my time go? The year is wrapping up and it’s hard not to begin looking back at the things you wanted to accomplish and wondering what happened. This can be a bit of a dissapointment, when you realize there is a long list of things that you’re just not going to get to in the year 2024.

Who cares? Seriously though, why do I keep making resolutions and plans for the next year that area always so actionable. The optimist might say it’s because I want to accomplish them, and plans that you set reasonable goals for are much easier to achieve. I, as the pessimist, instead see that as a limitation. I have created all these measurements for my failures in the coming year.

This changes with 2025.

For this next year, I will only create resolutions that are vague, and almost wholly unattainable because they are devoid of any measurement. For example, rather than writing a certain number of pages, or publishing a certain number of songs. Maybe I’ll say:

My resolution for the new year is to write something that transcends the pages it’s written on. Something that makes my heart a flutter.

Easy, I could knock this out in a day. OR more importantly, if I don’t I can much more easily lie to myself and say I did it by the time 2026 is rolling around.

If you’ve ever struggled with accomplishing any new years resolutions, then I’m going to recommend you to this strategy.

Might I also say, on a quite little tangent, I have a real problem when people say they “don’t do new years resolutions.” Like okay buddy, you’re not special because you choose to ignore a tradition for the new year that is openly beneficial to you. It’s always said with disdain.

“New year’s resolution? No thanks, I don’t see the need to create goals that would improve my wellbeing around the new year.”

Yeah no shit, you don’t see the point in making any sort of improvements over the course of the year as well. Don’t get so high and mighty because you COULD make these goals at any time of the year even though you won’t. I urge you, if you don’t make new years resolutions, then really own it and say you actively don’t make new years resolutions because every year you hope to become a slightly worse version of yourself.

That in it’s own way, is a beautiful new years resolution.

Until next time.

I’m Colin

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